A new year has come and I'm really trying to do something different.  Not making a huge change, but something that everyone should do. I want to have at least some documentation of things I've done and how I feel about the life I am living.  So finally after 3 days of procrastinating I am beginning to write this blog as a diary for myself and no one else.  If others stumble upon it then cool, but if not that's fine too.  It's been about 5 months since I moved to Bloomington, IN with Jeremy and I've been at the Kroger deli department in town for about 2 of those months.  The job is fine, but there is a lot of drama and I don't necessarily enjoy that part of the job.  My coworkers are pretty chill except for a few that are annoying.  One girl I need to mention is Kaila.  She is a very interesting girl that I've met.  Super chill, really pretty, and can be easy to talk to.  Needless to say I am attracted to her, but she is incredibly smitten for her ex so that is going to go nowhere.  It sucks that I have to see her all the time, but I'm managing.  Then there is Chelsea another cool chick although honestly not as physically attractive as Kaila, but definitely I like to talk and be around her in general more.  I'm considering asking her to hang out, but I'm not so sure about it since we do work in the same department and Kroger frowns upon that.  I write and think a lot about women, because honestly I think females are the most beautiful thing on the planet...it doesn't bode well for my relationships to think like this, so I am trying to change it, but for now....whatever.  The daily grind of work and coming back to play video games on my laptop doesn't look like it is going to change for a while, unless I pick up a second job, which I really need to do.  That's all for now.