Mercury Retrograde?

I've been really interested in Astrology this past week or so.  So while looking things up I ran across a phenomenon called Mercury Retrograde.  Basically the planet appears to stagnate in its' orbit and even moves backward relative to the view of people on Earth.  Basically it is supposed to mean that communication and mental acuity is depressed.  If this is not true then I have no idea why I am having a hard time writing this blog and finding the words to correctly express my ideas.  I'm not sure whether it is the placebo effect or not, but I would like to explore it more.  However I am also crushing pretty hard on this girl at work.  Jessalyn is the name.  Now that I think about it she has a really nice and quite unique name.  Hopefully this works out.  This Mercury retrograde started Feb. 6 according to the online Old Farmer's Almanac.  The next Mercury retrograde is scheduled to start June 7, two days before my birthday....great.  It is supposed to end July 2.  So I wonder what I will think about then...will it be the ever interesting Astrology or will I feel the need to fall in 'like' again?  Who knows, but at least now I have some sort of record to analyze this most interesting phenomenon.

The Voice

I love being a Gemini, but boy can it be a mess for me at times.  With my stutter I have been pretty quiet, but at times when I drink I am not inhibited.  Last night I went out to drink with a few friends from work and I said too much.  I let my talkative self just say whatever and it may have gotten me in trouble.  I don't know for now, but maybe.  My love of women betrayed me because all of my thoughts poured out in one big venting session.  I hope it doesn't end too terribly.

A new year has come and I'm really trying to do something different.  Not making a huge change, but something that everyone should do. I want to have at least some documentation of things I've done and how I feel about the life I am living.  So finally after 3 days of procrastinating I am beginning to write this blog as a diary for myself and no one else.  If others stumble upon it then cool, but if not that's fine too.  It's been about 5 months since I moved to Bloomington, IN with Jeremy and I've been at the Kroger deli department in town for about 2 of those months.  The job is fine, but there is a lot of drama and I don't necessarily enjoy that part of the job.  My coworkers are pretty chill except for a few that are annoying.  One girl I need to mention is Kaila.  She is a very interesting girl that I've met.  Super chill, really pretty, and can be easy to talk to.  Needless to say I am attracted to her, but she is incredibly smitten for her ex so that is going to go nowhere.  It sucks that I have to see her all the time, but I'm managing.  Then there is Chelsea another cool chick although honestly not as physically attractive as Kaila, but definitely I like to talk and be around her in general more.  I'm considering asking her to hang out, but I'm not so sure about it since we do work in the same department and Kroger frowns upon that.  I write and think a lot about women, because honestly I think females are the most beautiful thing on the planet...it doesn't bode well for my relationships to think like this, so I am trying to change it, but for now....whatever.  The daily grind of work and coming back to play video games on my laptop doesn't look like it is going to change for a while, unless I pick up a second job, which I really need to do.  That's all for now.